One step closer
Oct. 11th, 2010 06:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valancy_janeGrowing up, I didn't need to be reminded to do my homework or follow the rules. Not doing so was...impossible. Inconceivable. There were rules. There were expectations. I would have found it easier to break my own arm than to try to bend a rule.
After last week's allergies and exciting stomach issues, today I woke up feeling, to my relief, fantastic. I went running for three miles, walked an additional one, and realized something that felt even better: somewhere along the road, running went from this stressful, I-have-to-be-perfect, joy-or-misery exercise to just...something I do. Monday, Wednesday, Friday. The end. I enjoy it. I feel better after it. It's nice.
Perhaps best of all, I'm not thinking in terms of numbers anymore. It's not "by 2011." It's not "the X-minute mile." I have what you might loosely call goals, but they're more like things it would be nice to do. Mostly, I just...get on the treadmill. Have fun. After 15 years of off-and-on, binge-and-quit routines, I've finally settled in to just doing something. Consistently. And if I miss a day, no big.
It's really nice.
After last week's allergies and exciting stomach issues, today I woke up feeling, to my relief, fantastic. I went running for three miles, walked an additional one, and realized something that felt even better: somewhere along the road, running went from this stressful, I-have-to-be-perfect, joy-or-misery exercise to just...something I do. Monday, Wednesday, Friday. The end. I enjoy it. I feel better after it. It's nice.
Perhaps best of all, I'm not thinking in terms of numbers anymore. It's not "by 2011." It's not "the X-minute mile." I have what you might loosely call goals, but they're more like things it would be nice to do. Mostly, I just...get on the treadmill. Have fun. After 15 years of off-and-on, binge-and-quit routines, I've finally settled in to just doing something. Consistently. And if I miss a day, no big.
It's really nice.
